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i feel like a semester's worth of thoughts have been put on hold.. unprocessed and unresolved. i went out to get another moleskine the other day. i guess it's just another one of my attempts to start fresh, and unchain myself from my past failures, like my laundry list of new years resolutions. i honestly feel like i have a resolution for every person and their mother.

read more. be timely. be a good friend. learn about health policy. learn about the world. lose weight. learn to prioritize and not let opportunistic greed overwhelm my rationale. less hugging, more library. study at least 2 hours a day. do things that will advance me academically. get A's in my classes. shadow people with my career interests. believe in myself. because i know damn well that if i don't, no one else will either.

what do i think of this past semester? what did i like? what couldn't i stand?

haha.

i loved.. spending more time with jordan and chanel, having a brief moment to sit and play my guitar, playing sudoku, sleeping forever, getting the occasional chance to swing dance, filling my mind with music after finals ended

i liked.. pledging, AiR, bio 1A, my current housing situation

i disliked.. abnormal psych

i hated.. that i wasn't able to go to church more, my grades, my old roommate situation

what separated what i liked, and what i loved was definitely the fact that i had too many "good things".. so many that the scale was tipped so far in the "good direction" that all the good things rolled off of the scale, and showed how badly my semester was obviously going.

LEARN FROM YOUR FREAKING MISTAKES RACHEL.

i could listen to these all day.